It's ME!!!!

2009-02-25T23:51:00.008+08:00

Today there are 3 things that makes me happy:

1st: Finally is my last day of YR 1 tml... So glad!!! *cheers* But also quite worry who will be the one that i will be presentating to.. *worry sia*

2nd: Today I saw the most beautiful and biggest rainbow of all since young.. I always love viewing the sky and always see the changing of the cloud that either forms into some shapes and really lovely stuff that is eye catchy.. *Surprise! Suprise!!* Got to see rainbow twice in this 2 months..

3rd: Went to bras basah to print my stuffs, nearly missed the time cos all digital print shop are closed except one.. just my luck!! If nt i will rush like HELL in the morning.. Later took a cab to school and chatted with the cabby uncle.. so coindence that his son studying the same course as me but has graduated a year ago.. when reaches the school, uncle charged me half price of the cab fare.. can u believe it?? is just my luck again!!

3 Things that make me sad and disappointed:

1st: When sharing the beautiful moment with your love one but yet doesn't really seems appreciation.. Wish to watch the rainbow with the person but yet.. but I can understand cos she is super not in her mood due to her work and her ulcer.. making her pek cek.. Sometimes i really scare to talk to her cos scare i say something wrong again and that's it.. Don't like seeing misunderstanding and miscommunicate.. I maybe look silly and stupid but I sure try my very best to understand the situation..

2nd: Damn!!! Rushing my projects till my spine problem came back.. torturing me few days le.. *argh!! -angwee- If wanna take my live just take it but not torture me no more..

3rd: Super unhappy with my school facilities, so many students using but yet lack of facilities.. *argh* end up last day rushing my work like just came out from "hougang chalet".. imaging 200 plus students using and squeezing in few comps.. super so pathetic lorx..!! Pissed off on the waiting time.. Please improve on the school facilities and students' need please......................

2009-02-23T03:43:00.002+08:00

2009-02-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

This few days very tired didn't sleep on my own timing 8hours.. feeling floating and blur blur like sotong *sad* having panda eye rings nw.. rushing some cd design and poster design for my studio projects now.. later on my vacations have to think some new designs for t shirt and trucker cap.. Keep thinking and thinking on my mind of design and helping my fren looking for some designers too.. anyone interested??? Go to this link and have a look.. http://noobconcepts.blogspot.com/ This blog was set not long ago do drop email if u are interested.. if u don't see my name on it that's a reason behind it cos i wanna be low profile so wun be putting up my name for the moment.. hahaha... hope vin dun sar bo me ahx.. so the tshirt design are very limited but soon be coming more designs out by Me.. Stefanie series that has my signature.. so stay tuned!!!! lolx.. doing this to set as a porfolio to me and to get some experiences and knwing and learning what people like to have in the shirt design.. pretty cool and exciting.. just chatting with my fren about set up a forum to vote for design that people most wanted to be print on tshirt.. lolx.. still doing step by step cos suggest to have shoe designs too but the cost wise but will plan in the future if the response is gd.. lolx.. but actually sometimes i really quite sick of keep thinking and wanna rest my mind for the time being but i keep controlling my mind to move on and not stop if nt i may lose interest le.. Haha!! guess what actually my very first ambitious since Primary sch is wanna be actress but too bad im too ugly to be one.. then few years back in 2003 wanna get into baking and cooking course but end up i get into design course cos i build interest in the course so i apply to get into ITE AMK for DMD.. First time failed to enter cos too many people into the course then following year i tried to apply again and finally i get to enter le!! but have to go for interviews and test before i get in and finally i went through all the tough time le finally i climb up to polytechnic nw but i don't knw what's going on to me also.. suddenly feeling interior as i see people do more better than me cos i keep thinking im frm ITE and the standard is not high till I entered poly that totally changed my life.. feeling helpless sometimes and gets stress up and burst up crying sometimes.. don't know what's going on with me.. I thought I'm strong but yet im not.. I always wanted to show a example of being a big jie jie to the younger age for being strong and have a own mind of thinking.. but inside me im not that strong still like cry baby.. *argh.. that's what i hate myself cos that's my weakness.. So STEFANIE YOU MUST BE STRONG OKAY?!!??? treat yourself better and leave what is already past..

**Something confused me today, I know im quite bad in explain or convincing people to believe in me but just that I hereby to tell everyone that I LIKE KENJI LIM ALOT!!!!!!!!!! **For my frens who knows and for people who don't know.. I already fall for her since the first time i see her on 3 jan 2009 at AMK HUB.. My liking for her grew each day and i promise to wait for her, be staying single for her.. rem i always told me that if you are not kenji, that will be good but i cant change the fact cos you are kenji.. Actually there are lots of time i tried to force myself not to like you but failed.. I did really mentally prepare that one day she might say gdbye to me, in my heart i hope it will nv happen..

2009-02-19T02:41:00.005+08:00

Surprise to receive this present from my ex on the 17th Feb few days after my bday.. came to my house out of sudden without any notice.. =]

Love,
Stefanie YJ

2009-02-19T01:59:00.003+08:00

Last few days on the 14th Feb was my birthday but I really happy that i could spend this special day with someone that is special in my heart.. She was working on that day but meet me straight after she knock off from work.. really heart pain to see her so tired but still spend the day with me.. We went to eat, chilled out at Acid Bar drink a little bit before catching our movie called "New in Town" in the evening.. Pretty funny and humorous show that should not be missed.. Guess what?? I gt her heart lolx.. no lahx.. Is a heart shape donut from her.. Is that really sweet of her?? =) -hugs- At night, meet some of her friends join them for another chill out at chinatown KTV Pub "cow and coolies" actually my 2nd visit from there.. 1st visit was quite bad experience so nv go there for a long time till now.. Drank alot that night till I'm very drunk like a slpy zhu zhu but tries many ways to make myself awake.. That night was abit shy cos the whole ktv pub knows it's my bday cos of one of my "friend", Den's Big Mouth that announced it to everyone.. Somemore nt once but twice or more... I almost hide my head under the table sia!! lolx.. But im quite happy with the celebrate as it's my first time celebrating with strangers in the pub too!! lolx.. was rather happy but also sad on that day as i keep seeing things that forcing me to pretend i nv see so i just drink and drink till i drunk like a siao char bo.. lolx.. Another unforgettable birthday for me.. =) Still have a week more to go before my long vacations!!! Jia you!!!!!

Love,
Stefanie YJ

2009-02-10T04:49:00.003+08:00

Today is the last day of CNY, rather busy in sch but is really nice in the evening as me and my family having a mini gathering dinner just nearby our house eating 'Zhi Cha".. Quite enjoyable meal as i have ordered my favourites!! lolx.. Eat till I damn full with rounded stomach... Oopx! =X hahaha... When i was on my way for diner, I look to the sky find something special cos nv see sky that has spreading light source in a V shape.. I love looking in the sky wherever I go, that's always something special and something to capture the moment of life that you don't know when you gonna see it again, that's also link to our daily life that is don't do anything that makes u regret your life cos there won't have any chance given if u really missed it.. =) haha.. guess what im doing in this hour 5am doing my studio projects nw.. abit sian but still enjoying myself cos is abt creative hw i wanna wants the story to be.. lolx.. Animation is about torturing the character, that's what my lect say de.. =X not my fault being violence!! hehehe.. Still have 2 weeks till the end of my projects.. I can do it de...!!! Yeah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ That's all abt it!!

2009-02-09T00:52:00.003+08:00

wanted to grow the same hair style as her.. Maybe my hair nw looks like a bush?? but will definately try my best to get this result out for myself.. Hang on!!! and Stay tune... =X

2009-02-08T22:22:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was fun..! Celebrating my advance birthday with some friends, really do enjoy my dinner and their accompanies.. My friends brought me to a restaurant called "Modesto's" at Vivo city a so called Italian restaurant.. The food was really nice and I almost can't finish it cause ordered too many le.. After that we walk around at vivo for window shopping and chat chit around till 9 plus we went separate ways to have our own program as they are catching movies at vivo.. After that, one of my fren, silver called and ask me to meet her up as she have thing to pass to me so i went to meet her at cine.. I was happy to receive the folded stars in a bottle from her, It's really really sweet that she make all the folded stars by herself using her spare time but is really quite a pity that i cant be with her as i do have feelings for her as my friend.. She will always be my friend forever.. I was feeling abit down and decide to go for singing session at KBox.. Sang from 10plus till ard 3plus, my buddy came to join me after wrk with her fren.. We sang alot and drink alot!! Suddenly silver told me, She dun like seeing so sad and always thinking lots of stuffs.. I told her i know that.. But feeling funny sometimes when i just keep myself slient only, people will start asking what am i thinking? Actually I always think alot of stuffs and is in random links.. lolx.. don't know why? is just my brain cant stop thinking of things unless im sleeping.. Soon im turning 24 next sat, suddenly I don't feel like celebrating my birthday just past my time bah.. not sure also.. Sometimes i was thinking am i someone that is very difficult to understand?? I do admit that i do have "Hai Zi Qi" and stubborn but is just me, Im still on the way of my growing up and learning stages.. Maybe im not fit to be in love or be loved by others.. I just move on with my life.. That's about it!! =)

** Celebrating My 2 years being single (7Feb)..

** Thanks for everything my friends!!!! Love you girls alot and alot!!! Won't feel lonely no more le..

YR 1 NYP Assignments =)

2009-02-07T04:27:00.005+08:00

2009-02-07T02:21:00.002+08:00

Today is end of my Year 1 in NYP proceeding Yr 2 in 2 months time after my semester brk.. Happy to know it comes to an end but more tougher times are coming soon but I treasure the time i had in NYP doing my fav and dream course.. Wanna work harder for YR 2 as is getting really really tough le.. Wanna build more confident in me, do all my very best in my works.. =) Today stay in sch quite late ard 10pm.. pretty tired cos running all over the room doing Typo, Animation, MAYA test and MAYA Assignments, been running up and down like mad woman without taking life but stairs.. Finally all assignments are cleared but here comes the Studio Project that lasted for 3 weeks begin on 11feb to 26feb ltr i will be havin my long vacations.. Plan to find a job and save up some $$ for next term sch and future use bah.. hmmm~ Tonight I keep listening to Tui Hou Sang by Jay Chou, been listening since 2 years back till now.. Have lots of meaningful sentences that I do really agree.. Feeling abit down.. Admit not being a gd gf last time after realised the mistakes it's already gone.. Even you have changed, the person has already had someone else.. So never make same mistakes again..!!! Focus what i have to do nw as a growing adult.. Someone has told me that im look like a flirt as in frenly flirt but I just not flirting is just me and my character cos i don't really like hurting people with words as i care for their feelings when rejecting people cos after all liking someone isn't a crime or what and can't stop them for liking u but just to avoid words that will misled them but if the people push me too hard, Im sure gonna say some harsh words to let them knw they really don't have a chance.. I can be very naive but real serious when comes to work don't like people disturb me (except someone special) I will roar at them.. lolx.. Come to play I can be very very play like a monkey jumping or hopping the place (this ----> my close frens knws cos they try it b4 =X) but now i less cheerful maybe still something bothering me bah.. maybe.. Hard to be who am i last time but wanna be the present me nw.. with loads of works on hand focusing to my future path.. What is past is past.. let it bygone bah..

the sentence:

抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道门都没有错
只是放手会比较好过

最美的爱情回忆里待续
**（相信你我还会有开始
只因我们都没有错）

2009-02-03T23:14:00.004+08:00

A fine and happy day for me.. as everything went smooth for me just that I have to redo my animation drawings, is my 1st time redo-ing my work.. quite sianx to know about it but nevermind will do my very best for this redo work.. Hush~ Hush~~ Yeah!!~ Today rushing some work as this week is my last week of year 1.. Phew~ finally complete my Year 1 for this struggling year.. What about next?? Received my fav top today rather sexy i can see but wanna slim down abit before wearing it out.. hehe.. *nosebleed myself* lolx.. "zi high sia!! Another happy thing is my ex's mum happen to call me up and chat with me.. so surprised to receive her mum's call even though i very long nv see her mum le.. Share what im doing this few years and she is very happy finally i got in poly.. Her mum knows i tried very very hard to struggle in to poly.. Don't worry i will work hard for my studies de.. really misses her mum alot sia!!! She wish I can find a time to visit her one day at her house and ask me to call in advance cos she wanna cook dishes for me.. really misses her cooking too!!! Im really touched and really really happy to receive her mum call.. Even though me and ron never lasted long in our r/s and broke off 6years ago but I still do wish you happiness with your current gf.. happy for you that you found the one in your life but do also care for your family members too.. I will try my best to call your mum and chat with her too, I can feel she's quite lonely at home as your dad is working and you are always out.. Give some concern on her too okay?? =) and Happy Advance Birthday to you, Aunt!! Know your birthday is on the 19 Feb just 5 days after my birthday.. Wishes all the best to you this year and stay pretty for always... =) Damn misses you from the moment you call till now.. hahahah!! Kind of siao siao now le.... lolx.. Another thing is thanks bud, jya for everything, don't always scare i nv eat and wanna bring me food and snacks.. Im alright de, knw how to take good care of myself but Im sorry that im always not be there for you when u need me my bud.. Im really sorry, been thinking the whole day that i nv treat you my bud well.. Thanks for being my bud.. You are always my closest fren and my dearest bud forever even though we can't be together but I always wished you can find someone special in your heart.. -muacks!!!- A love luck kiss for you always.. Need to get back to do my wrk le.. -__-" Next week Studio Projects start le.. Super duper sian but have to bear with it!!!! No more outing for me as need to stay in sch from morning till night.. Bear till 26th Feb bah.... Work hard!! Work Hard!!!

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*** Latest update!!

My friend jio-ing me to join them go HK on July.. Still thinking wanna go or not?? Cos quite tied in cash and have to work coming march.. Must really really save alot of $$.. but really wanna go leh.. *argh..... Hang on in the air nw.. -___-" Planning to go taiwan after i graduate from poly.. hmmm... how?? Must really cut down my meals nw.. I don't wanna be "mushroom" nv travel HK b4.. lolx.. Actually last time nearly go HK for attachment with the HK students but end up i back out cos of family problems and don't wanna leave my mum alone.. If can really go, I can meet up my HK frens sia.. Missed Pat, Mia and Pearly they all.. lolx... *confused*

2009-02-02T00:30:00.004+08:00

I'm really sad now, don't feel like talking to anyone.. My heart is so damn heavy and flood with tears.. I can't believe is just ended and put a stop at there cos of a misunderstanding that my buddy, beatrice was drunk and saying all those words and ruin someone that I like.. I definately can't explain anything, I can't blame anyone except me and it's my fault.. Trying to comfort my buddy over my relationship problems but end up mine become mine ended.. It's really stupid me, im too weak to defend myself.. Don't know why always my hp kana chase away by my friends, feel so dao mei, wanna explain but is too late already.. Im really sorry about it but i already too late for saying I'm sorry.. Maybe i don't meant to like anyone cos I always hurt and disappoint them for my empty promises.. Realise is all my faults but is already too late le.. is really.. I can't say anything le. But I still like her alot from the bottom of my heart. Feeling my mind is blank nw too weak to express my feelings..... Untill nw I dun understand why beatrice say herself 'single' on the phone when i was chatting with her.. My mind just can't digest it can't think properly need explaination when you are awake from your drunk, too much things on my mind that cant stop me from thinking.. I feel sucks now!!! Got to think of my schwrk, family and friends' problems and my own problems.. I really can't take it already but i just have to be strong as my exams are coming, I need to stay focus trying to persuade myself.. Im really lost nw don't know what to do and where to start..

**To my buddy beatrice:
I just hope your problem will b solve and not think too much and drink too much.. Thanks for sharing your problems to me but I just want you to be happy and have your happiness what is past is already past just think of what you want and stay focus as drinking everyday does not cure the pain away turns out to be a habit ltr.. Im worry for you buddy.. But not to worry for me, think i will be fine, and it takes time for me again.. You should know my character that i wanna be alone for the moment so anything you just email me alright.. =] That's all..

2009-02-01T02:23:00.006+08:00

What's love to people? changing lifestyle just to suits the person that you like.. I don't find it is a way to maintain r/s this way.. If the person likes you in the way who you are, the person will accept your everything.. Why change yourself when u feels uneasy and that's not you already anyway cos each person builds a special character and attitude in them.. Well, just be yourself. I had this friend of mine can't accept why the world is like that and can't be simple and simple minded, told me that cant accept the fact.. i was having this mind set when i was in my younger age but is true that people change in their thinking and nothing is simple in this world.. If continue to be simple minded you will get hurt, bruised and people do cheat on you.. Just face the fact how the world was.. I also wanna be simple but just can't.. too much experiences reduce my trust on people, wanted to trust but too scary to trust as don't wanna get hurt. Sometimes is really really confused on what i want and just lost my way just burst out crying like that. Wanted someone to led me on my way but I'm always on my own.. Still on my way of learning ("a growing up learning") now so into the experts.. maybe beginner abit above? lolx.. Sometimes u don't really expect to see yet there isn't a choice for u to choose.. Been a Les for 9 years into some flinging r/s that i doesn't really me.. i'm also shocked that why am i like that? Regret some of the r/s don't work out cos im playful and overfriendly to other les that's makes me cut down my profile nw cos i really wanted a lasting long term r/s for my own.. wanna grow old together with the one i love, holding hands each day, eat breakfast together, hug to slp together and do things together as usual what old couples does.. heart to heart together for always.. Sometimes if we are busy at wrk but when we are resting we think of each other.. lolx.. hard to find this r/s right? People do make mistakes in past cos we still young and nv knw the mistakes until they realised and leave regretless but just what i think we still need to move on as the past love ones dun wanna to see the saddness in you and wanna you to move on and find ur happiness but it really takes time to heal your wounds back maybe for a year or maybe a life time i don't know.. cos it really depends on the deepest of ur wounds.. For me, it took me almost 2years to heal and letting go slowly cos letting out is to set urself freedom and learning what u have lost and nv make or to pick up the mistake in your previous r/s.. Maybe im not good in expression myself in words but is the way i think for now..

2009-02-01T00:18:00.004+08:00

It's a new month today, 1st Feb already.. 13 days away from my birthday wonder how I'm going to spend my birthday this year.. Anyway, Happy Birthday to Everyone cos today is "REN RI" everyone is older by one year for lunar calendar counting.. Lolx.. Everyone gets old on today.. *Cunning Smile* me too also mah.. =X Actually not really happy to have my birthday on that day cos I will be alone celebrating my birthday as my friends that are attached spending their day with their loved ones.. Kind of strange why people find my birthday is special day for couple to celebrate their love but not me lorx.. I don't really like my birthday falls on that day, sometimes i was thinking why must my birthday falls on that day leh?? *Curious* Today is a tired day yesterday i din slp for the whole night having "fitty fitty" eyes, did sleep for few hours before i start my work again.. -___-" Been waiting for her msg, guess she also sleep the whole day bah.. **Missing her already.. This zhu zhu must sleep 12 hours a day de.. I really pei fu her... I want also cant cos still got wrk to do maybe my hols can relax abit b4 i start wrk and im still looking ard for job too!! But sometimes kind of lazy lah.. -hehehe- *Must CHIONG AHhhhh!!!* & *HUAT ahHhh!!!!* cos $ going burn big hole le no choice this course im in, is kind of $ sucker.. Always ask us buy things but use 1 or 2 times never use le, they think we are so damn rich is it?? Don't they remember we are still student!!!! Quite fustrated today cos it seems like im doing the whole damn projects alone need to "bao" everything, that's why wrking alone is better than wrking in a group cos sometimes the ideas u like, doesn't means ur grp partner will like it too, then it turns out conflict but we never in to conflict yet cos we shd knw what we doing cos they are young on growing adults and im an adult, im that young, lazy and mind set is totally diff that's why i know.. so i forgive and forget.. Haha.. thinking back i really such cry baby last time anything also will cry but not nw cos i prefer to cry meaningfully as tears are precious so i can't waste like that wanna use it meaningful.. Sometimes i find am i hard to be understand? But actually im just a simple girl with a simple mindset.. lolx.. Not as complicated as what people see.. Even though I may not be as femine but is just me to have some guy's mindset (中性) is just me.. Don't really care what others see in me cos this character is already bulid in me since im young maybe things happens when i was young that's why i turns out to have this character.. If people cant accept me as what i am, is their problem le.. i cant change myself bcos their comments and I really hate changing myself becos of others.. If they like the way i am, I really appreciate it but if not then no choice le, choose ur own transport and leave.. lOlx... Haha..

2009-01-31T00:03:00.004+08:00

Today is another bad day for me.... Feeling sick and tired yet no one understands me.. I really feel like crying nw.. went out alone to city hall to chill out, I'm so surprised is that really me?? cos i never go out alone that long before to enjoy my peaceful heart on my own seeing things.. I din pick up her calls and just wanna be alone did went to drink alittle nearby the riverside, sometimes i was thinking does she cares and worry for me when she try calling to look for me..?? When i got home and msg from her, i decide to call her cos i really really miss her alot and wish she was with me.. But when i call back she just wanna catch a movie with me as i promise her earlier on when she done with her things but im really feeling sick and was running slight fever maybe I caught cold when im out alone.. I really wanna her to give me some concern and care.. I was melted frm my heart when she told me "She missed me and wanted to see me".. Actually I wanted to see her badly but just like i cant say it out.. But I keep mumbling feels something struck on my mouth and nv get to say things out till she feels so pek cek with me and attitude sudden change so i decide to hold back and ask her to enjoy, yet my heart was like crying after i hang up her call.. I have been thinking of her alot when im alone, guess she will nv knw how i felt nw..... will she understand i don't know.. But do really really like her alot guess im just nothing to her...... maybe she still think im a flirt that flings around yet im not.. If I really like that person nothing will get to change my mind and my heart even my suitors neither will get me cos i already had someone in my heart no matter how she is, i can say she will the one i fall for and like alot.. When she sad I will be sad, wish to share the moment with her but guess im not her type cos im not fun loving and sometimes im abit sensitive towards some of her stuffs but in my mind I knw is jus her past and this is what she is nw.. Playful, cute, humorous and charming that attracts people alot but I just like her in who she is and maybe she still feels that Im not really like her deeply and just feeling cos feelings will fade fast maybe i don't give her the feelings that's y she dun believe i fall for her?? Guess what?? will I writing this blog nw i was like keep looking at the time, wish time runs faster as i really have the urgent to rush down to see her but too late cos guess she is angry that i hang up her call.. ** Im sorry, dear.. I din mean to do it.. =) Got to take medicine and rush my work tml cos been going out and nv care about my schwrk.. =X

2009-01-30T00:53:00.004+08:00

Today is a tired day for me, didn't sleep well or eat much.. Don't know what happen to me today?? Don't feel like me today, feeling sad and been thinking alot.. Feel some stress from buddy, Jya cos she scare i fell for the wrong person and ask me to stop seeing the person.. So hurt and pain when i hear what she say to me.. Guess what i already fell for the person deeply but i had some problems with me that is i feeling interior cos seeing her with her pretty femme friends but i know i will be pretty one day when i start wrk in industry with lots of exposures in creating my own image and i don't really do well in studies but just doing quite well in art and designs but just nw into maths cos really hate it alot!! lolx.. i think all designers do agree that they hate maths too.. lol.. Im planning to work and wanna study part time photography, guitar and bakery classes.. I think this few days i made her feeling bored cos there's nowhere for us to hang out.. feel so sorry to her to make her that bored cos im a boring gal.. Alot of things to share with her but im nt good in my language that may led her misleding... guess what i told her im waiting for her for a year after her wounds is heal.. But the next time i heard frm her is even if we are nt att will be gd friends or even more.. hmmm... sounds im in single love again..... dun know wanna laugh or just cry in my heart... Don't know what i am and who i am..... gosh!!! I must be crazy.... But i knew i sure be waiting for her no matter hw she is and hw she becum, I just feel to love her in my heart and nw the feelings and "weight" is bury and increase my heart each day.. But nw i telling myself also as i waiting for her and study hard for my course to earn my cert.. Wanna both of us to fulfil our dreams and work hard for it.. I don't care what others see in me as a flirt or a fool idert just wanna be me, I wanna gain my lost confident back to me think I really bury too much things and problems in me.. need soul searching man!!!! *Ding.. *Ding... **Ding...!!

2009-01-28T14:10:00.006+08:00

1st Day of CNY was rather boring in the day time but getting fun in the evening.. cos went to my bud, Beatrice house to bai nian.. Her mum keep chatting with me lol.. but was rather funny cos she end up asking me I look familiar to her but can't really who am i.. hahaha.. after that the whole group of us play poker really a gamble day for us sia but too bad going to meet my other bud, Jya so din stay long for mahjong wanna learn hw to play but missed it.. nvm there's always another day.. So silly i went home to change my heels to my boot shoes cos i scare i cant ta han walking the whole day.. REali tired and Pain sia!!! Actually din really sleep well this few days that's why can see dark eye rings on my eyes sia!! *Ugly le... Went to a pub at Marriot hotel, boiler room. It's a Les night called Her Story.. Pretty Fun!! Love the Music sia!! So many hot Babe excluding me.. =( But just too overcrowded and stuffy there overall atmosphere i really had a like in it.. When i saw my bud, i was like rushing and hop onto her and hug cos i din see her for long le took lots of photos of me and her.. She had a nice new hair cut of this CNY.. Woo~ cool man!!! if can i also wanna cut my hair like that but too bad i wanna grow long hair nw le... Don't knw how long it takes to grow on my chest sia..!!! Hopefully by next year..**Argh!! That night i was my bud's "partner" cos the girl she likes alot with her gf.. Poor bud, luckily i came to join her.. nvm bud work harder to get her, u already had her in her heart le.. She will be touched by the words and things u do for her.. I wish u will always be happy and will give u all my love lucks for u to get her in your life cos u had fall for her deeply.. For me i just don't love luck depends all fate and jus take it natural.. =) Back to my topic: --------> That night was kind of crazy, play kissing game with my bud cos her lover's gf dare us so we jus do it infront of them.. gosh!! I steal my bud's first kiss for reserve her lover.. Ooops!!!! But bud say is good cos can see her lover got the jealousy and angwee looks, my bud was so happy to see her like that sia.. LOLx.. too bad bud i can't help u with the kissing again le.. I reserve for my love one ahx.. Lolx.!!! Wanna make a complaint frm u, Don't squeeze my butt too many times when dancing ahx.. !! **angwee sia!!! *@#%@!! That pub really brings me lots of familiar faces.. one is my ex fren, IVY, and other one is JO, the two is my ex crush, Akachan and Bf.. pretend nt seeing them cos wanna enjoy myself there not flinging but one of them just came and see me told me I'm more much prettier and slim down alot nw..*what the!! So lame approach.. I just smiled and continued my dance.. Saw 3 bungs looking at me, giving me a look that they wanna approach me but luckily my bud is with me sia.. don't wanna knw anyone including my bud's fren.. *phew~ that andro was really really flirt and not my type.. When i first time intro my name to her and she shake my hand she really dun wanna let go sia, my bud saw le faster save me from her sia.. But she really do look familiar to me, think i saw her somewhere.. We dance for almost 3 hours and stop and take a break to nearby TCC at isetan area.. Kenji msg and called me told me she quarrel with her buddy, i was like wanna rush down le but can't dump my rest of friends like that.. When they chatting my soul was kind of lost in nowhere sia, wonder hw is the situation and where is she nw? Bud say i overreact and asking me to cool down.. I think i was too overreact till I don't knw what im doing.. But luckily she came down and meet me.. finally my heart felt so relieved to see her alright, i just let her released her anger and say out everything to made her feel better.. Sometimes i feel i bored to her cos I din talk much and response but in my heart i knw hw she feels or I will let myself into her situaton and feelings but she just think i dun understand her if can i will wanna switch all her problems to me cos i can hide my feelings properly not letting anyone knws.. =)

Happy Treatz........!1!!

2009-01-24T22:08:00.009+08:00

Finally get to see my sister today, miss her so much!!!! She give me and my friends, weixian a treat at korean restaurant @Far East Plaza.. Really had an enjoyable lunch with them and have sharing lots of secrets and gossips!! lolx.. But don't know when I'm going to see them again as is going to be a busy month in FEB... sure be missing them lots and lots.. They told me that I'm really skinny but I don't really realise as i think im still quite fat.. For them, they think im crazy but i really had a phobia of getting fat cos of my Past that people insulted me and hurts my heart deeply so that's why i don't wish to be fat and ugly again.. Tried lots of clothings today, loved a tube dress at this shop called HURS.. the dress just fits me nicely, really love it alot!! Wanna buy the dress with my sister but she told me is quite tied for her but the dress really looks quite gurly.. Today far east damn crowded, see so many peoples till my head nearly had headache and i don't really feeling well as i didn't have enough rest this whole week.. Didn't get anything for myself today but my sister bought her husband a jeans for CNY, she's been looking around for her pants too but non fits nicely on her.. can see she quite disappointed as she feels that she's fat can't get to buy clothes that she likes alot as is only S or M... Today cool her down we went to eat ice cream dessert at SLICE, im eating as usual "Summer Flings" that is mango ice cream and She has her "Oreo Chocolate" but i forget the name for it.. After that we walk around around Far East and Kenji is also there with her ex too.. She called me and ask me where am i, came and look for me.. Can't really describe my feelings that moment when i see her and her ex after they left, i feel so down and suddenly not i used to be in the noon.. Don't know why just had that feeling to nw...... Don't feel like chatting with anyone.. maybe me siao again...... lolx.. nvm next day i will be alright le..

2009-01-22T02:18:00.003+08:00

Topic of The Day:

"If you're still holding on to some hurt feelings or leftover issues from your past, today is the day that you need to move past them. They are clouding your thinking and causing you to think things about someone in your life right now that simply aren't true. Are you judging someone based on the actions of someone else? This person's role in your life is potentially very important, so you need to spend time with them today and give them the chance to show you who they really are"..
=)

Love Poems:

Love is so very special
Yet can make you feel so lost
It can just arrive out of sudden
And melt away like morning frost

You must find ways to nurture
Always grow your love with care
Never ever take for granted
The love that you both share

Mistakes are bound to happen
You may hurt each other's heart
Yet don't give up to easily
It will tear your love aparts
And leave regret and hurts in the heart

Love resembles a bright flame
That lights a dark starry night
Never ever let this flame burn down
Rekindle with all your might

Take a moment every day
Look deep into each other's eyes
Never hesitate to show affection
Small gestures will keep a love alive

Talk openly about your feelings
Take time to show that you care
Treasure each and every moment
Because to find true love is rare
So cherish what you have

Love,
Stef^aNie

2009-01-20T16:03:00.003+08:00

Woo... Found this on my previous sch website.. feel like so ugly me.. and don't know since when Im 17 years old when my age is 21 that year.. LOl.. But was actually published on straits time that year.. But really glad have to receive the award =) But im happy more to have the award from france in a international photography competition and get into finals just sad that i don't have a chance to go there but happy to have a "name" and award.. lol.. Proud of my efforts I have done.. Now i rather slack to join competition need some support!!!! lol.. =X

2009-01-20T03:11:00.001+08:00

My Bike in the Future!!!

2009-01-20T00:13:00.004+08:00

It's a boring yet busy plus stress day today!!! lots of assignments nt done yet.. Killing me soon.. Today's test was freaking difficult, the whole class was kind of fainting and lots of "ah here and there"... lol.. rushing for storyboarding this afternoon actually kind of tired gonna fall aslp in class le not only me, all of my classmates are suffering the MONDAY BLUES!!!!!!!! got animatics to do of cos will feel abit sian but is going to be end of this semester just do it... lol.. Show how my lecturer look.. ANG MO ahx.. dun siao siao!! lol...

2009-01-19T01:13:00.015+08:00

Suddenly I kind of missing the chiangmai villagers and children dun knw if they are doing well there or not and are they happy using the new school we bulid for them.. actualli i do misses their cooking even though is nt feast and mostly are spicy foods but we are warmed inside our heart when the last few days of the staying they cooked fried chicken which we didnt really eat meats for that whole 2 weeks but they spend the whole day in the kitchen trying to cook as feast as they can and creating the amosphere of our diner with all the candles ard the new school.. the last day in the village, they cried and jus left the memories behind for them to rem.. I really wished they doing fine nw and the children are happy schling jus wish they can get electricity so they see in the dark..

My Closest Friends and Buddy Ever:.!!!!!

2009-01-18T03:57:00.006+08:00

My Closest Friend and Buddy that knw me well =)

2009-01-17T01:30:00.000+08:00

Let me intro you some of my dearest BFF...

My Best Memories I Had Last Year is.....

2009-01-15T23:32:00.000+08:00

My Birthday is coming le... This year will be much quiet "Maybe" cos busy with my major projects plus no one to celebrate with... =( Last year was the best cos having my godbrother and my frens to celebrate with me.. Best memories ever.. But just don't know why my birthday falls valentine's day when couple spend time on this special day... is just my luck not having one..

Pic of my birthday celebration last year:

2009-01-15T14:39:00.000+08:00

My Poly ClassMates!!! We are enjoy our Seoul Steamboat... Wooo~....... 1st time out with them, really enjoyed the fun having them...